Friday, March 20, 2009

hello!

v long nv post le. dunno ley. dun feel like?

came back from co camp. hmm..was fun to be with the people bah. but i hate it that when i play i always seem to be off tune. retarded. sectionals on the last night, then i looked at my fingers; maybe it was the fingers that pressed onto the strings, but coz it is not pressing on a point, im pressing on the higher note than i actually think i am? zzzzz i dunno. was in quite a bad mood after an incident. guess was quite stressed then i just snapped. literally.

today went into maple again. not bad la, still got alot of buddies online. =) pity i cant play much...rawr.

hmm..who are you? so many sides, so many people i never knew you knew. i dont know.

hmm, tmr gonna wake up at 6:30 to watch news. note to self: set alarm pl0x

if i could craft out words, that could describe everything about you, i would.

to you, you may not be perfect, but to me, you're perfect in every sense of the word. there is perfection in flaws, and hence flaws in perfection.

aye. how does it feel, to have so much power over someone else? to know you can make them snap, with a twist of your fingers, with a simple word?
how does it feel, to know you can either make or destroy, create joy or despair, all in every little thing you do?
how does it feel, to have someone standing by you, 24/7, to know that when you fall, he'll always be ready to catch you, and wipe away your tears.
how does it feel, to treat him as distantly as you can, so that you can prevent yourself from bringing him too close, so that he doesnt break accidentally with a slip of your hands?
he can be strong, and yet so fragile because of you. he has been twisted and bent, torn and teared, and yet he doesnt care, because of you.

the most beautiful sunset is nothing when you're not there to enjoy it with me.
why does the dying sun glow red?

you are beautiful, no matter what they say.
you are beautiful, in every single way.

yet the greatest paradox there can be, is the how you need to lose to know how to treasure, how to be sad to appreciate happiness. because humans never know what they have until they lose it.

and i've lost you. lost to the other side of the world, lost to time, lost to place,
lost to changes, lost to people.

and you'd say: "how do you lose when you never had me in the first place?"

and then we move on to the topic on dreams. how dreams can be so real, so vivid, you'll believe in it.
in my dreams you were there, you were there for me. i believed.
in my dreams there were only you and me. i believed.
yet when i woke up,
i was dragged back into reality,
and reality is,
there never was you and me,
just you and your world, me.

and in reality, i realised, what i thought i had, i never had, what i realised i lost, i really lost.
and he closed his eyes again, and cried.

hmm late le. nights people.

ForMeThere'sOnlyYou
12:00 AM